...little A...

Life well shared

2012-02-06T17:15:00.004+08:00

masuk je klas, as usual la lepas exam, all the lecturers will make their own ANALYSIS !

in qualitative aspect, it can be good or bad. i'm sure no one want to hear about the bad one. but the reality is, there will be the bad one. straight to the point, one student in my class will be 'rewarded' an F for math.. biasenye org cakap, kalau 1 org yang berjaya dalam kalangan kite, cakap dalam diri yang kita akan jadi yang sorang tu. but not for me! why why why??? because because because...... those who get A's are already mentioned and none of them is the person who is writing this sentence.. yes, the sentence that you are reading right now.. >_<

diriku digantung tak bertali. oh NO!

bohong kalau cakap tak terganggu dengan insiden pengumuman tersebut! i started to feel like i'm a very #$%@^ person !! and, feeling like there are no more strength to get through this 6 february 2012! also, feeling like I HAVE RUINED MY WHOLE LIFE!

TAPI..... !!! apa kan daya, life must go on.. and aku ade banyak lagi kelas yang sedang menunggu, so GET AWAY YOU BAD THOUGHTS!!

though i always think of myself as a !@#$%# person, but i do say 'ALHAMDULILLAH' for every single thing that had be given to me and also for every happy feelings that i feel. sometimes we might look at something simple, for example bangun tido. kadang-kadang kita lupa nak ucap syukur sebab kita masih diberi kehidupan, keupayaan untuk b'gerak, dapat menghirup udara yang segar dan nyaman dan macam-macam lagi yang tak mampu nak di list kan satu2.. i'm just an ordinary girl, so for sure sometimes i do forget to mention it. but whenever it passes your heart, say it! tak rugi ape-ape pon kalau sebut Alhamdulillah. so, even if

i'm not able to get A, its okay. it means that i need to work harder after this. its a good thing isn't it? whatever grade it is, syukurlah. yg pnting, sentiasa majukan diri, and NEVER GIVE UP!

every time i did't manage to do something right, i will think of :

1 - #@$%^ la aku ni!

2 - kesian mak babah. mesti malu dapat anak macam aku.

the 2nd one will definitely make my tears fall just a like a heavy rain.. and that's what happened in my class last semester. yes! others will surely describe me as :

1 - budak lembik!

2 - sikit2 nangis, sikit2 nangis !

hadirin hadirat sekalian, korang tak kan pernah faham what triggers my eyes to secrete those tears. after holding those frustration, sadness, anger and everything, to cry is worth it.each one of us have our own life and it will never be the same.even if u are facing with something that is unbearable, u will also think of crying as the best way to release the tightness of your chest. ( ignored those bad phrases )

Sow an act, and you reap a habit;

sow a habit, and you reap a character;

sow a character, and you reap a destiny.

~George Dana Boardman~

p/s : everyone has their own thought, way of thinking, and way of showing their action :)

17 minutes stopping by!

2012-01-09T20:50:00.004+08:00

i've been in silent for a long time, i guess...

actually i'm thinking about updating my blog but lots of works do disturb me and stop my fingers from running on nora's keyboard. never mind then..

well, i only have 17 minutes to write anything for this post.

sometimes i feel like its a waste for me to have a blog.

why?? because, as all of the viewers or readers can see, there's nothing much that i wrote in here,right??

and i also feel like its a waste for the readers to spend their time and read what i wrote here.

but, an option of closing this account make me think twice..( not twice..many times actually..hehe..)

so, at the end, i have decide that i'm going to make this blog, as a 'place' where i can write anything i want to.

not hoping for thousands of followers,hundreds of comments, and millions of viewers. no!

but one thing i do hope, if there is any thoughts, idea, motivation that i write here, hope it will be something that will inspire anyone who view my blog.

i may not have so many 'input' to share with everybody, but hope any simple thing that is written here will trigger to a positive thing. :)

nothing else left, bubbye!!

p/s: you may have your own plan for your life journey since you were young. and you may be dreamed about something since you were young. but do provide some precaution steps for the plan. because along the way, your plan might not be done according to what you have planned due to some 'natural errors'. experience = experiment

~untitled~

2011-12-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

betol betol!! tak bohong..! memang sangat2 tension..! kadang2 rase macam nak meletup pon ade kepala ni kan.. yela, macam2 bende fikir..

bile kawan2 aku cakap die tension, aku akan cakap balik, ' relax r..jgn tension2 sangat..nanti satu keje ape pon tak jadi..'

so, tak kan aku nak jadi orang yang hanya tau cakap tapi tak pratik kan bnde yang sepatutnye.. kan?????

so, berat macam mana pon, aku kene relax jugak la.. selagi kepala tak pecah, means aku okay lagi la tu..huhu..

trust me, setiap orang pon akan ade satu mase yang diorang panggil 'hard time'..kan???

and diorang boleh jek get through time yang macam tu.. so, aku???

BILE ORANG LAIN BOLEH BUAT, MEANS KAU PON BOLEH BUAT....

bukan dari segi getting out of a 'hard time'..tapi dalam ape jua aspek jugak..okeh??

so, tak yah la nak emo2 sangat... :)

ease yourself...:)

p/s : ade mase aku sampaikan cerita pasal kura-kura and arnab.. :)

on n on....

2011-12-08T15:16:00.003+08:00

untuk aku and semua,

ape pon yang jadi, teruskan jela p'jalanan hidup korang..

bak kate sir, ' this is not the end of the world '...

aku tau sume tu berat giler2 nak kene tanggung..

cube bagi aku pilihan...mmg xde pilihan lah..

there's no other way to go other than just follow what u should..

though its not what you want, but you'll never know what is waiting on the other side..

there must be a reward for every patience..

i'm not that 'excellent' person who deserve to talk about this matter..

but i think there's nothing wrong for me to have these thoughts in my mind..

those are the reason why i am able to continue my routine..

thinking about what had happened to you in the past will only just make u fall..seriously!

i can't stop thinking about those regret..

but until when will you move out from those nightmare???

be strong and be positive!

try to find something that can motivate yourself whenever you feel down..

even a single word can make you feel relief..

DON'T GIVE UP AND KEEP ON TRYING!!!!

p/s: fine! post aku sgt serius dan tegang..just like how i feel right now..

Mak and The Cadets..

2011-10-10T16:58:00.006+08:00

MAK :

" eventhough i'm a lecturer, i still ask my mum some of the vocabs.. and sometim

es my mum told me, ' how come u not know the words..u're a lecturer..how r u going to teach your students..??? ' u know, even though they are not working, but they speak

more fantastic than we who learn so much..even though they are not a teacher, but they speak more fluent with the British accent than us..they are much better!"

nothing else to say except move my head up and down as a sign that everything he

mention is true!

how can i be so sure?? my mum is one of those people that he meant!

even though she is just a 'domestic engineer', she is able to teach me gramm

ar correctly.. she help my sister with her essay and my sister get 40/40..she is able to help the tourist to reach the resorts and airports.

her talent makes people blind about her duty at home everyday, 24 7....

i am proud of my mum!! I LOVE YOU MAK!!!!

i don't know bout others, but i do miss my mum every day! the feeling triggers me to push the buttons on the phone and dialed her number..nothing wrong with it, right?

me with mak at the public speaking competition..she will always there to support me..

THE CADETS :

i just came back from a motivational camp at Kem Tentera Sultan Abdul Halim Shah, Jenan,Kedah.

physical training, for sure, as the main activity and the objective

s all KAKOM participants are brought there.

kawad, mermpuh halangan, night walk, cheers, haka, etc..

without i realize, i do miss all the fire fighter cadets from Le'Best!

everything is just the same to see all studentd need to run in the line, wear the same shirts, eat together, pray together and do everything together..

berita harian...:)

the best achievement ever!!!

every success comes from a very hard work...

the cadets!

always together wherever we are...:)

not only marching, but we do know acting!

untuk platun leader, your voice is the best! x jumpe lagi yang lagi tegas and sharp than yours..:)

as a conclusion, i miss these two different people..

they do give me a very big impact in my life.. the most important thing, they teach me how to be strong! i miss all the memories before.. no other words left to describe those feelings..

( feel about to cry already..................)

'baby' SYAFIQAH!

2011-09-30T16:58:00.008+08:00

DaNaQaPiaRah! td aku jalan2 dgn pkah, pastu masuk la kedai gift..

as usual la, mcm nk giler mate aku tengok barang2 yang 'comel2' tu!!

tibe2 aku t'fikir, 'hadiah birthday pkah x beli pon...tapi nk beli ape ek????'

then tibe2 'baby' tu b'suara,

pqah : nok celeng........

aku : beli r..comey tuu..

pqah : tok sey beli..nok suruh awop mu beli...heeeeeee... (buat muke comel! )

aku : ( betol gak..aku pon xtau nk beli ape kat baby ni..hahahaha...) doh pilih r mu nok hok ane..

pqah : hehehe....

aku : siyes ea..pilih jela hok ane2 pon..

pqah : yeaahhhh.....

last2 baby ni b'kenan yang ni..aku pon pegi la bayar kan..

tadaaa!!!! tu la hadiah hari jadi nye...

baby tu b'kenan yg nie..amik jela..huhu

a lesson to be learnt.. :)

2011-09-22T23:20:00.004+08:00

hari-hari i got class,lecture,experiment..and in the end of the day, lots of tutorial, reports and assignment need to be done! ( x siap jugakkk..huhu..>_< )

modul 1 lagi la..

normal la.. name pon student kan.

and normal la jugak, org cakap , jadi student rase tension, stress, tekanan and so on..( bukan ke same je sume??? errrr... )

YE BETOL! memang normal!

tapi xsure la ape yang aku alami ni normal ke tak..huhu

1st week after raye :

result UPS! t'jawab sudah la segala persoalan yg ade dalam benak2 fikiran student KMK ni..

same la jugak ngan aku..Alhamdulillah.. walaupon banyak giler2 kelemahan yang aku kene atasi, takpe la..aku tak kesah. memang kite kene sentiase perbaiki kelemahan kite pon kan?? tak pela..even though 4 FLAT bukan milik aku, aku akan cube lagi..

sedih tak yah cakap la.. tengok org lain main2 dapat 4 flat. tapi, masing2 ade kekuatan masing2..

rezeki ade di mane2 kan?

prasaan dah mula t'ganggu nih. tibe2 muncul la pulak 'event' bile kuiz aku pulak buat hal! OMG!

ape lagi yang nak cari pasal ngan prasaan sedih aku.. Ya Allah, tuhan saje yg tau ape aku rasa.

aku bukan tak tau, tapi aku takut nk letak jawapan yang dah ade dalam kepala ni.

sebab ape?? TAKUT! TAKUT SALAH! in the end, tula markah kau. padan muke!

trase xde daye dah aku nk masuk kelas lain. i try to calm myself down, sbb ade 2 klas lagi lps tu.

rupe-rupenye klas yg lepas tu pon mmg sengaja main dgn emosi aku.

bile aku failed nk selesaikan soalan yg lcturer bagi, finally! t'burai jugak air mate aku kat situ, depan2 lecturer tu jugak! MALU!!!

serius aku xblh tahan.. ( sorry sir...)

i just lost myself! ape yg aku tau, kau bodoh athirah!

bile call mak lagi la.. boleh buat empangan la jwabnye air mate ni.. ( hahah..just kidding! )

the following week :

i try to redeem every single mistake that i made before. Alhamdulillah! memang puas hati!

syukur sangat2.. and sikit2 those spirit came back and motivate me not to give up!

mak n babah, kakak n abg oja, k.ya, n kawan2 are always there to calm myself down. thank u! :)

weekend tu, aku duduk n fikir2 balik ape yg dah jadi..think i've learnt something :

NEVER LET FEARS CONTROL YOUR MIND!

sebab perasaan takut nak buat salah, aku tak letak jawapan.

'dik, learn from mistakes! never feel afraid to make any mistakes..'

aku tau ape jawapan nye, tapi aku tak yakin dengan diri aku, so aku tak jawab.

sebab ape tak yakin??? sebab, dalam kepala aku, athirah bodoh, die tak pndai. betul ke jawapan tu???

kalau kite tak percaya kan diri kite, mcm mane kita nak suruh org p'caye kan kita??

lain kali jangan takut! kalau kita tak cuba, kita tak kan tau yang kita betol ke salah.

APPRECIATE YOURSELF...

bila fikir balik, aku seolah-olah selalu hukum diri aku sendiri when i fail to do something good!

aku akan terus kutuk dan kutuk dan kutuk diri sendiri walaupon kadang2 tu bukan salah aku.

mak slalu cakap, ' kita kene hargai diri kita..cakap yang baik2 kat diri kita..kalau kita tak hargai diri kita, sape lagi?? '

so, walaupon kita x hebat mcm org lain, jangan hukum diri kita sebab kita tak boleh nak jadi mcm tu. everybody is good in their own way.. appreciate yourself walaupon untuk perkara yang kecik. trust me, it will lead u to a positive thought!

HAVE A SHORT BREAK AND THINK ABOUT IT...

mungkin aku t'lampau banyak fikir including other things. sbb tu aku jadi tertekan mcm tu smpai fikiran aku terganggu.

' take a deep breath, and have a break...' jangan la t'lampau paksa diri for something that u're not able to do. take a baby step..one step at a time..no need to rush..

klau kita sentiasa b'usaha, insyaAllah, success will be yours..

so, whenever u feel down, just try to have a break and think positive..

motivation is very important, people! :)

dear kawan..

2011-09-20T20:41:00.004+08:00

untuk kawan yang aku sayang, yang aku care giler2.. tlg phm nie..

aku bukan xnak paham prasaan kau, tapi aku cukup paham..

kau pon tau yang aku dah rase sume ni lebih awal dari kau..

aku tak mintak kau terima 100% cakap aku, tapi at least aku harap kau pertimbangkan..

aku x suke tengok kau hidup dengan air mate!!

jangan bazirkan air mate yang Tuhan bagi tu untuk bende2 yang tak perlu!

especially on that particular option! please dear!

aku tak sekat ape2 yang kau nak buat..

as a friend, i will always be by your side to support you..

tapi, please..fikir baik2..

kalau getting back to where you are before is the best thing for u, i'm fine then..

i will pray the best for you..

find the best reason for that!

jangan d'sebabkan perasaan 'upset' yang buat kau xde semangat jadi alasan untuk kau buat keputusan yang mcm tu..

again, aku tak kesah ape jugak keputusan kau in the end!

tapi please, think about it!

please don't be confused dengan KEPERLUAN and KEHENDAK...

i know you are a very smart girl. n i'm sure you will make the best decision for yourself, right?

honestly i'm out of words.. aku tak tau dah mcm mane nak cakap kat kau lagi..

take care dear.. do know that whatever happend, the 3 of us will always be by your side..

stop crying honey!! >_<

p/s: p'caye atau tak, i can't stop worrying about this girl's condition..hope she'll be fine..

kejam ke??

2011-09-09T17:41:00.002+08:00

xde lah..aku cume ikut ape yg aku rs betol..

klau kau rasa x betol lantak lah! aku mls nk kesah..

so, from now on, aku bagi warning kat kau jgn cube2 nk pengaruhi aku..

aku lemah?? mudah d'pengaruh?? pape jela..

aku manusia biasa jek..

tapi at least aku xnak r kau tambahkan dosa kau pengaruhi aku dgn bnde2 yg x bgus..betol x??

so, kau fikir la sndiri.. :)

pergi hati...!!

2011-09-03T08:36:00.003+08:00

tak ade ape-ape dah.. mood pon dah tak ade..
nak cakap hape pon tak tau..
PERGI HATI, PERGI!!!!!
biau nanti aku sampai sane kau dah ade..
tak payah aku nak kene tunggu kau berhari-hari..
susah kan aku je nanti..
perasaan yang pelik-pelik kau xpayah ikut aku..
duduk je kat rumah..kau x payah nak susahkan aku nanti la..
aku x suke kau ade dgn aku kat sane! okay??
aku nk pergi dah..
yg penting, HATI PERGI DULU!!

hey you !

2011-08-16T15:14:00.004+08:00

GO AWAY!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!

a pair of my EYE!!

2011-08-06T22:40:00.008+08:00

hahaha!! ni la mksud saye ' A PAIR OF MY EYE...'
( gelak2!! pdahal dalam hati cuak tahap gaban! )

nampak cam elok je kan mate saye tu.. tapi yang sbnaunye, tadi mase dh settle smayang terawih, duduk la tggu nk smayang witir..
kebiasaanye bile nk smayang witir, ade segelintir yang akan 'mintak diri' lebih awal dari yg lain kan?? ( knp ah?? huhu..)

so ade la 2 gadis kat depan saf saye td nk 'mntak diri' dulu..so die jalan la depan saye..tanpa memandang ke bawah............hadus!!!!!!

xde pape kan??? nmpak cam elok je kan..?? huhu..
usually, i will put my 'eyes' kat blakang telekong..tapi memandangkan malam ni die mcm asyik nk jatuh jek, so i decided to put it down infront of the sejadah..lepas bace doa, adik tgk je 'mate' tu. t'pikir plak, 'best jugak kalau dapat tukar yang baru.huhu...'
sbb tu la org cakap, b'doa dalam msjid insyaALLAH termakbul..tengok..!

CONFIRM!!!!! TAK SEHAT MATE NI!!! aaaaa...yang penting skali, MACAM MANE AKU NAK MASUK KULIAH ESOKK!!!????
kalau kuliah mcm dalam kelas aku tak kesah, mslh nye kuliah yg sebesar-besar tempat yang boleh muat 250 org ni!!! makkkkkkk!!!!!! spek adik rosak!!
ayooooo...kalau ckp kat mak mesti mak dh rsau ni..aiggoooo!! >_<

ALLAH maha mengetahui segala apa yang ada dalam hati anda....
lain kali be careful with what u wish for..huhu..ni la pengajaran nye..
to mummy, adik x sengaja mak! huhu..to kakak, give me some suggestion for the new one.! heeee

p/s : kuliah esok..mcm mane ni..nasib baik dh nk dekat balik..waaa!! BALIK BALIK!!

UNEXPECTABLE!

2011-07-31T23:01:00.002+08:00

27 july 2011 : 11.00 am
with a mount of tense in my mind, i called my mak to get some relief..

mak : adk okay x?? ke adk nk suruh mak dtg..??
adik : xpayah mak..adk pon dh nak balik dh..xpe le.. ( serious! i mean it..mmg BETUL2 XPE! )
mak : kalau nk suruh dtg bgtau..kalau x babah nk gerak esok..
adik : xpe mak..jgn risau..adik okay.. ( SERIOUS!! ) :)

30 july 2011 : at about 10 am i call my mak..
with a happy feeling after having an exrecise dgn roomates..

adik : mak buat ape tu??
mak : mak baru je sudah gosok baju.. mak ingat nk kluar kejap..ade keje sket..

xsmpai 5 mnit ckp ngan mak, dah hung up... then, dalam pkul 6 ptg lebih2 sket, ting tong!!( bnyi msj phone nowa..^_^ ) 1 message received!

abuya : adk, mlm ni ade keje x?? akak ya ngan mak kat SP dh nie..otw nk pegi kat adik..

OH MY!!!! apakah yg telah terjadi?? apakah yang telah buat mak tergerak hati nak dtg jugak cni??? oh oh oh!! tak tau tak tau!! adik tak tau!! ADIK TAK BERSALAH!!

once bace msj akak ya tu xtau nk ckp ape..
HAPPY + SUPRISED!! bimbang pon ade..sebab dah pkul 6 lebih..dari SP ke sini lbh kurang sejam lbh2 sket klau x silap..means that mak akan smpai sini malam..ya ALLAH..bimbang nyeeee.....

serious! dengan gelisah nye adk tggu mak smpai.. about 9 pm klau x silap mak smpai dpn pagau..WHAT A RELEIF!! sebab,

1- mak dah selamat smpai..
2- DAPAT JUMPE MAK!!!!!

dah lebih kurang dua bulan lebih x jumpe mak..dulu mase dduk bdong, paling2 lame pon sbulan x jumpe mak..tapi ni bukan bidong..ni CHANGLUN!! oh my!! RINDUNYE!!!
apabila ditanye dan disoal what brings her here, then the answer is, ' MAK RINDU ADIK..sebab tu mak datang...'

smpai mcm tu skali mak sanggup datang..aduh...kesian dekat mak penat drive.. anyway, THANK U SO MUCH MAK!!! puas sgt dapat jumpe mak..+ lagi dua hari nk exam.. moga2 x sia2 mak datang jauh2.. huhuhuhu...ADIK LIKE!!! ^_^

p/s: bile rs nk ngs klau blh nk mak, tp slalu thn drpd call mak sebab x nak bagi mak rsau..tapi kali ni mmg btol2 x thn.. and the thought that she is worry about me is PROVEN!! tnpe byk ckp die trus datang eventhough i told her i'm fine.

When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child. ~Sophia Loren, Women and Beauty

DaNaQaPiaRah...

2011-07-23T19:19:00.005+08:00

kalau sblom ni, tiap2 malam (time prep) adik akan hadap muke 4 org budak ni..
pegi klas pon akan jmpe diorg walaupon x 1 klas..
pegi kantin ape tah lagi..klau x ckup kuota, mmg x jalan..huhuhu..
kalau time ade program pape, 5 meje 'reserved' untuk kami..:P
kalau ade budak pompuan 5 org b'keliaran around kwsn Le'Best, pkai t-shirt PINK yg same, mmg xde org lain r..
kitorg ber5 la tu!! huhuhuhu...^_^

since form 1, smpai habis SPM, and smpai la skarang..tak renggang budak ber5 ni..
tapi skarang masing2 dah jauh2 la..
sorang ke s.alam, sorg ke 'puncak' alam, sorg lu nuh, DUNGUN!! huhuh..
nasib baik ade sorg ni kt kedah dgn adik..
dah la umah dekat, dpt pulak tmpat dekat..nasib bilik je x dekat..
mmg mcm belangkas!!

pape pon, budak2 yang lagi 4, aku rndu giler kat korg!! ( x gler lagi ek..just expression....huhu)
insyaAllah, raye ni mcm2 mane pon kite KENE jumpe!! MESTI!!
harap2 xde halangan untuk kite jumpe ye??huhu..budak2 KT pndai2 r handle kete tu..kasi gerak smapi ke besut..bile dah smpai besut xde hal r! huhuu..:P

korang sume jage diri ye..
take a very good care of yourself!! blajau pndai2..moge kite sume jd pndai n jd insan yg b'gune!! n for sure, dpt capai cite2 kite...

for:
Dayah - jg diri ye..be strong!! forget about the past..jgn mudah kalah dengan 'words' yang lansung xde makne tu..sume tu bohong!! p'caye la, u deserve more n much better than that!! u just have to wait..one day u'll find the right one..:)

iNa - mu mmg sempoi je aku rs..xde hal r mkcik ni..huhu..rndu nk mkn lame2 ngan mu smpai kering tgn!!hahaha!! ( jgn amalkan ye..org tua2 kate nnti mak mentua x syg!! hahaha )

Piya - pucca!!! u manyak senyap meh..bz ek??huhu..u pon jg diri ye..mkin omey pucca leni!! hahaha..nnti pucca drive dtg umah barney ekk??? heee..once pucca smpai, barney nk tepuk tgn kuat2 smbil ckp, PUCCA hebat!!!!! ^_^

Pikah - errrrr.....pesanan ape nk bg ni??huhu..pkah fine jek..ujong mggu tmn aku makan ek??hahahaha :P

I MISS U NUR HIDAYAH, ANI ASYRINA and KHAIRUN SOFEA!!!!!

NAK BALIK!!!!

2011-07-22T19:44:00.006+08:00

kalau boleh jerit memang nak jerit je rasenye...memang x tahan dh rsenye..eeeiiiiiii!!!!!! aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!! NAK BALIK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MAK!!! ADIK NAK BALIK!!!!!
dgn tnpe segan silu nye...memang x blh nak lindung lg dah kali ni..serius x sbar nk balik...!!
agak2 org lain rs mcm ni jugak x?? ish! mmg xtau r nk ckp cm mane...
mggu ni rs sgt 'uneasy'..ape penyebabnye aku sndiri xtau..
and kesan drpd tu buat aku rs nk balik gler2!!

UPS dah x lame adik oiiii...
leklok sket prangai tuuu...eii..
xtau r nk ckp!

p/s: org slalu ckp ank bongsu ni manje.adik slalu ckp x. tapi kali ni x kire r..manje ke x ke, NAK BALIK!!!

another father-daughter song..

2011-07-12T19:27:00.001+08:00

BUTTERFLY FLY AWAY.....
by: miley cyrus n her daddy...

You tuck me in,
Turn out the light
kept me safe and sound at night
little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
had to drive me everywhere
you were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
you would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be
can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight.
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Turned around and you were there
The two of us made quite a pair
Daddy's little girl was here at last
Looked away and back again
Suddenly a year was ten
Don't know how it got so far so fast

And yes dear, you don't understand
It's not anything we planned
Kind of makes you think it's meant to be (it's a destiny)
I always knew the day would come
You'd stop crawling, start to run
Beautiful as beautiful can be

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away (butterfly fly away)
Got your wings, now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away (butterfly fly away)
You've been waiting for this day
All along you've known just what to do

Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly
Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away (I hope you find your way and all the things you wish for, love and care about)
Butterfly fly away (oh, won't you fly away)
Butterfly fly away (oh, won't you fly away)
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly Kisses..

2011-07-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

at about 11 am this morning, i had an ENGLISH class with Mr. Dhana..
before the class begin, i questioned myself, as usual i did, what task will he give today??

Sir Dhana : ok students! today we're going to continue with the listening part.
( he gave us a sheet of paper then...)
i will play u a song, then i want u to guess what the song is about..

adik : ( yeay!! lagu lagi..heee...Butterfly kisses?? lagu ape plak ni?? )

then he played the song. for the first part, he only played the introduction of the song and without any word. he asked all of his student to guess, what the song was all about. few guesses are taken n most of them were about LOVE...
( adik pon fikir cmtu jugak..huhuhu ^_^ )

then, he played the full version of the song.........
this is how the lyrics was...

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven
And she's daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh but most of all

For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony daddy it's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny daddy but I sure tried

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every mornin'
And butterfly kisses at night

Sweet 16 today
She's lookin' like her mama a little more every day
One part woman the other part girl
To perfume and make up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
You know how much I love you daddy
But if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the check this time

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin'
And butterfly kisses at night

All the precious time
Like the wind the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today
She'll make a promise and I'll give her aways
Standing in the bride room just staring at her
She asked me what I'm thinkin'
And I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm loosin' my baby girl
And she leaned over

Gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk me down the isle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddy's don't cry

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin'
And butterfly kisses

I couldn't ask God for more than this is what love is
I know I've got to let her go but I'll always remember
Every hug in the mornin' and butterfly kisses

oh my!!! I was touched! without I realize tears were started to fall..
but STOP!!!! this is an English class, not a motivational session..huhuuhu...

but, the message is, GIRLS out there!!
do know that your father LOVES you so much!!
even though he didn't talk much, he didn't ask u whether u're fine or not, or didn't spend much time with u, doesn't mean that he didn't care..
trust me!!!
deep inside his heart, he was taking care every inches of u.!

his time might not be yours, but do realize that those time that he spend is to make sure that u can live comfortably, just like today......
and when it comes to the moment that he need to let u go, u'll never know how he is having a very hard time to accept the fact that he need to let her BABY GIRL go...

to my beloved BABAH, THANK YOU so much for everything...
may ALLAH bless you always, n forever...

I LOVE YOU BABAH!!! ^_^

a wind of CHANGE......

2011-06-17T23:17:00.003+08:00

its like walking after you are awake..
no more baby steps..
no more 'good morning my dear...!'
now, it's not just walking, but a chase..
chasing something that is very valuable..
time pass by before i could realize that i'm already late!
rush did rise the tense...
no matter what, and where, time must be filled..

a short term is an important matter u need to count on..
no more second chance,
because this is already the second one..
this totally not before..
everything comes different...
after A WIND OF CHANGE......

singgah kejap...

2011-05-19T00:10:00.002+08:00

last post listed on 'what's new here' is in February..no record for March and April.
pernah bercadang untuk ttup trus account ni, tapi, rase sayang la pulak..tak pe lah, let's just see what can we do with it..

banyak and macam2 bnde dah went on..semua tu yang bakal buat adik face new life lepas ni. i always ask myself, whether i am ready to face it or not..yet, still didn't get the answer.. ape2 pun, kene READY!

others already made up their mind where they would go to. everyone will go on their own way. see you later guys! hope to see everybody again next time, insyaAllah..

so, that's it! cume nk 'singgah kejap' nk buat record utk May. TTFN!! :D

i'm back to...

2011-02-21T18:46:00.003+08:00

there's nothing left i can do..
it leaves me no choice..
this test is too big!
i'm afraid that i will fall before i could walk..
i try to leave thousands meaning in every word..
but, i failed..
i wish for the best i can..
in the end, it is the worst i ever did..
try to fix things up..
and now its broken!

if it is a good thing,
just hope for it to be seen clearly one day..
right now, there is nothing left....
and i'm back to BASIC...

" The best way out is always through " ~ Robert Frost ~

a month without school...

2011-02-01T21:27:00.003+08:00

honestly, memang bosan..mase yang slame ni slalunye pack with activities dah bertukar kpd mase yang perlu diisi dengan aktiviti sndiri..
A BIG CHANGE I THINK!!
some of my friends use to work..some of them are busy with their driving lisence..
some of them are busy 'baby sitting'..hehe..but me?? none of that...
work ; wlaupon mase mcm da byk habis, but i'm still searching..
driving lisence ; erm, not yet..a bit scare nak mntak ngan babah wlaupon die mcm xkesah pon..huuu..
baby sit! ; i don't have any younger sister or brother to take care of..i'm just alone at home..HOME ALONE!!! hmmmm...tggu nak jage anak sdare jela..tp, lmbat la lagi..huhu
eventhough i don't need to do all that stuff, but i still have 'kerja rumah' to do..
huhu..as usual bgn pagi kmas rumah, sidai kain, bsh baju..sometimes jadi gardener pon ye jugak..huhu..sapu daun, siram pokok, bakar sampah, bla bla bla~~~~~~
and!! sometimes tukang masak..hahaha..sementara mase masih ade kat rumah ni, so i decided to practice my cooking skills! hehe..
i know i'm not Chef Wan, or Chef Riz ( auuuww!haha!!), but at least as a girl that will turns into a woman one day, i need to have some skills..huhu
belom ape2, adik da dpt tempahan utk goreng mee..da ade orang yang mule mengidam nak makan mee greng adik..hahaha..x brani la!

these few weeks, i'm a little bit cnfious, and also wondering knp i've lost my appetite??? xtau la knp, tapi skarang da xmcm dulu lagi..salunye dlu, klau time tgh hari, and ptg (about 7 smpai la mlm), prot ni asyk nk mkn aje..tp skarang, TIDAK LAGI!!..knp ye?? angan2 nak 'berat' kan lagi badan pon dah, xde rsenye..hmm,mcm mane ni??
maybe sbb da lame xmkn vitamin tu kot...huhu..slalu je t'lupe..yela, klau kat skolah dlu, sblom pegi klas, cnfirm2 akan amik sbijik..klau x smpat pon, smpai sggup sumbat dalam beg, smpai klas mkn..siap bagi2 ngan classmates..hahaha!!
skarang??TIDAK LAGI....huhu

bile da xade keje nk kne buat, dduk la tgk tv..tgk drama yang sblom ni xpnh minat nk tgk pon, t'tgk jugak..yela, nk tgk ape lagi..huuu..
klau x pon, bace story books..nsib baik la ade 1 novel HANNAH MONTANA yang adik blom bace lagi..hehe..i bought that novel in 2009..skarang baru dapat bace..mane x nye, sblom ni asyk bace buku biology, history, and so on..skarang, TIDAK LAGI..hihihi..well,at least ade la jugak bahan utk d'bace..sambil2 improve my ENGLISH..*_^

those are all activities that have replace my class schedule which i need to follow for 11 years before..huhu..
and!! not forgotten..emotions also have something to do during free time..hmmmm..
i can't run from that..nobody can't run from that..heee..^_^
lirik lagu hannah montana @ miley cyrus that always palying in my mp4..

BEEN HERE ALL ALONG...

Sunrise and I lifted my head
Then I smiled at your picture sittin' next to my bed
Sunset and you're feelin' okay
Cause you smile at the letter that I sent you today

Can't wait till I see you again
And we'll both say remember when
The band played on the 4th of July
And you held me on your shoulders way up high

You're still there for me
Where ever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us,
I'll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright
I'll believe that you were listening to my song
You're with me.
You've been here all along.

Back then you walked me to school
Tell me to be careful and follow the rules
Fast forward, you taught me to drive.
You gave me the keys and we went for a ride.

And I can't wait till I see you again
And we both say, remember when.
I'm holding on to moments like that,
I know that they're coming back.

You're still there for me
Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,
I'll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright
I'll believe that you were listening to my song
You're with me.
You've been here all along.

All along, the way I keep you in my heart and in my breath
You'll always be the one who cares the most
Counting all the days,
I see you runnin' up to say, I miss you.

You're still there for me
Where ever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us,
I'll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright
I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're still there for me
Where ever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us,
I'll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright
I'll believe that you were listening to my song
You're with me. cuz' You're with me
You've been here all along.

disturber!

2011-01-10T11:40:00.003+08:00

since early in the morning yesterday i've been disturbed through my phone..
ntah siape punye no adik xtau..tapi sangat xsuke...
perkataan yang rasenye paling xsuke dngau, SOMBONG...
nk knal ngan org tapi intro bg negative word mcm tuu..ape ni?? XSUKE!!
ckp adik ni sombong..org nk knl pon xnk lyn..lau btol2 nk knal, knal kn la dri tu..ckp knl kite tapi xnk bgtau sape dri tu...another XSUKE!
pastu org da x reply dok call2 org x brenti...
AH!!!

the owner of the no said, 'ngan kwn lame pon smbong...'
so klau btol la die tu kwn lame, that means die jugak kwn kpd kawan2 ku yg lame dlu...so, mgkin die jugak nk cntact kwn2 lame yg len kan???
so, di sini, dgn ikhlas hatinye i want to help that person...
if any of my old friend read this post, contact la no ni..org tu nk sgt b'hubung balik ngan kwn lame agaknye kan..so here it is!

0142905829

p/s: knl kan la dri tu..be a professional la!

wedding!

2011-01-08T22:20:00.003+08:00

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!
syukur sgt2 semua yang d'rancang b'jalan lancar..
yang paling penting, cuaca hari ni..sangat baik...ujan punye la lebat 2,3 ari ni..
nsb baik hari ni da reda..

haha! my sister already has a husband now! wahaha...xpcye rsenye..
i thought they had been together for 10 years, but actually 11 years already! wow!
after lafaz yang ke3, my sister is then abg oja's wife! haha..
sebak tgk babah tadi.. it is the first time i saw my babah crying...!
adik pon rs nk ngs..huhu..
then i know how much he loves her daughter so much!! i just can't believe how he had a very hard moment to speak out all the words.. it takes a few moment for him to calm himself down and continue all those sentence...
adk bradik ku da la rmai pmpuan..oh tidakk!!! x sggp nk tgk babah ngs lagi..huu

KENDURI!!! ( standard org cn, BELAROK! huhu..)
ntah pape je adik jd pengapit..anyway, keadaan yang sgt crowded mmbuatkan mak n bbh x blh nk concentrate kat kakk n abg oja..
tetamu x henti2 dtg..rmai yg amat... x pnh plak adik tgk rumah sndiri d'kunjungi org yg bgtu rmai! telor yg ktorg sediakan smlm pon xckup smpaikan kne msk len..hadoi..t'lebih daripada prancangan nih..huhu..

PENAT + PENAT + PENAT....
hari mengantau pon same je..cume bezenye ktorg x perlu sedia pape..
ape2 pon, mmmg letih...
tapi xpe, puas ati! hehe..

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU TO MY SISTER, ARINIE ABAS and MY NEW BRO IN LAW, MOHD KHAIRUL ZAMAN MOHD KAMIL..

how old are you???

2010-12-31T15:23:00.002+08:00

went to an optical shop yesterday..
since that kakak da biase ngan p'keje kt situ, so p'keje tu tnye..

p'keje : ini adk u ke??
kakak : aah..ni la adk i..
p'keje : die suda umur brape???
kakak : u agak2 die ni umur berapa???
p'keje : ( she looked at my face while thinking, how old i am..huu..) 13 thn???

kakak, abg oja, akak ya n including me gelak bgai nk rak!

p'keje : knp?? die lg tua ke??
kakak : smpai hati u ckp die 13..huhu
p'keje : oo..die lg muda ek...
kakak : she's alrdy 17..
p'keje : haiyoo..! knp u kcik?? u x mkn nsik ke??

huhu..
why does she think that i'm 13 years old??
ape yg ade kt muke ni smpai die pk cmtu ah?? adoyai..
mybe KETINGGIAN ku ini blom mncapai thap 17 thn!

1 day, 1 work

2010-12-13T00:14:00.004+08:00

bukak2 mate, keje mnanti...huuuuuuuuuu

mak : adk tlg akak ya kms blik tu..xde ms da ni..kms ari ni jugak..
adk : ( moving in silent without any words...huhu..)
akak ya : dik,kite kms baju dlu br kms buku ek..pastu kite ssun sume nie plak..
adk : okay!

b'mule la keje sy n abuya saye.....
kms baju, buku, n sgle jns harte yg ade dlm blik nie...
byk gler dn sgt x t'kire..pnt dik...
one day! non-stop! adoi...
xsdar ms b'lalu....
n u know wht dik, mcm2 bnde jmpe...huhu

1~ t'jmpe gmbau2 ms fom1 dlu..hahahahaahah!!!!! we all look very26 different..
so small..muke pon cm budak2..haiyooo!! tringat how danaqapiarah t'tubuh..huhu.. but one thing 4 sure hidayah x ade coz she is a new mmber..a year after that..but it's okay..huuh..gmbau2 ms ngan dak dom asiah dlu..
n BAMN!!! i saw a picture me with a girl.. die da jaoh skarang.. ssh nk jmpe lg..huuu..

2~ t'jmpe kad2 raye n birthday yg my besties bg ms skolah rndh dlu..siap pos lg..eventhough da nek skola mngh, yet still send me those cards and wishes...but now not anymore..huu..wish there will b a reunion with them..huhu

3~ t'jmpe fail pribadi plajar SK PUSAT JERTIH!!!!!!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaa...!! hahaha!!! gmbau b'ukuran pasport ku ktika b'umur 6 thun..hahaha..sgt bbeze dr skarang...huhu..mcm2 ade dlm tu..kad ksihatan, kad pncapaian dr adk drjh 1 smpai la drjah 6, n mcm2 lah!..huhuh....miss that momment sgt2...!

mcm2 lg yg jmpe, but those 3 things yg da lame x jmpe..huhu..
BUT! in the end of the day smthng tht i never thought would happen, HAPPENED!
ouch! how i hate that thing..but, its normal.. just let it be..
hmm.....

ahah! got an info from my fren..akn ade reunion sk pusat nnti...
wuhuuu!! xsbar..tp cop!
da lame sgt x jmpe so agk menakutkan to face with all of them there..
aiyooooo..sgt tidak sggp...huuuuu

missing my abuyi..bile mau balik?? xingt adk ke???????????
huhu...a young man yg sgt cbok skarang...adoi..
n da ade awek ek??
hahahaha..jgn mare abg yie kuuu....huhuhu...;P

keeping myself fresh, cool and calm....
everytime!!!!!!

what?????ha!???????????

2010-12-10T22:11:00.002+08:00

in all of sudden i change my mood...
actually i'm not the one who change the mood, but my mood was changed..
what????? i just don't understand...
well, whatever it is, let me get this straight..
all of those things are all out of my control....if there is any about it that i didn't know,it means that i didn't realize about it.. everything can happened without an irresponsible girl's knowledge like me who didn't know how to take care of herself...!
sorry about all of that ya....
( mad! )

I'M LEAVING FOR A BATTLE.....

2010-11-21T20:24:00.002+08:00

b'sisekan ms yg x smpai 15 mnt ag nk berangkat, sempat lg nk mengarut..huhuh..
once i step out of my home after this, i'll face with a BIG GIANT EXAM yg akan mempengaruhi my whole life...
adik slalu pk, ape la kputusan nye nnti...
HELLLOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
soalan pon xtau lg ape yg kuar da pk psl result....
step by step la beb......bak kate dr.fazli, jwb dlu then yg len serah kan sumenye kpd DIA.....
haaaaaaaaaaaa....takuitnye!!!!!!!!!!
sabar ajela.....anyway, i'll try my BEST!!!!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most,
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

To climb steep hills requires a slow pace at first.
~Shakespeare~

diFFerent.....

2010-09-25T10:31:00.002+08:00

balik kali nie, mmg totally different....
don't know why..at first it's nothing to think about..
until something suddenly appeared yg mmbuatkan adik tringat kn semua bnde yg da jd...
sket2 sume dtg..waaa...mlut da mule diam x b'kate, mate da mule t'paku...
( 2 la tnde2 nye yg x lame lagi adik akn bdmood....)
tp bcause of what??????????!!!!!!!
even i can't undrstand myself..then who else can????

' apsl monyok je...lth je nmpk...'
' ntah..xde mood r mak.....'
' apsl plak xde mood??? ade org kcau adk ke??? '
' xde...ntah,srabut rase....'
' apsl srabut?? adk pk pe??? '

sory mak...
srious mmg srabut..ntah ape yg adk pk adk pon xtau...
sory kali ni balik adk buat mak bmbang, rsau, n xsdp ati...
but i know, u're the best mother in the world!!
u know best for me....

1 hari di HARI RAYA....

2010-09-10T17:52:00.003+08:00

starting hari lebaran ni, pegi smayang raye...
mase khutbah td, btol2 'touched'...

' jgn lah kite memutuskan hubungan persaudaraan sesama manusia kerana ssghnye setiap manusia itu adalah bersaudara....'

ya ALLAH... adk ni da smpai thap tu ke ah???
berdosa sgt rasenye....tapi TUHAN maha mengetahui segalanya....
xpenah t'niat pon dalam hati nie untuk pisahkan sape2...
jahatnye adik!!!!!!!

hah! ade jugak jmpe ngan budak skolah td..dok saf depan je..huhu...
ms nk balik pon ade..tp yg tu bdk laki..
bbh jmpe ngan kwn lame...
jmpe ngan pkrja rumah ni dlu....
rmai jmpe...tp adk x jmpe guru besau skolah rndh dlu...
biase nye msti jmpe..yela..ayah die imam msjid tu..mmg la die smayang kat c2..
tp thn ni x jmpe plak...huhu...
mmg btol la..ry ni waktu untuk mengeratkan hubungan silaturahim...
yang lame x jmpe dpt jmpe....yang jauh jadi dekat...
alhamdulillah.....

makan time!!!
mak suh straight p umah mama....
thun nie busu n pak lang je yg ade..org len x balik....
so x ramai sgt la...nsb ad ank2 busu..so trase la jgk raye..heheh
klau xde budak2 x best ry..xrase meriah...huhu...
dapat la duit raye yg ptame from papa!!! hahaha
ptt la gtl tgn semacam jek..heee~~ >_<

eh, ari nie ari jmaat kan???
esk sbtu, 11 september...
that means ' international burning koran day '
masyaALLAH....!!!
ape la jht sgt org kafir tu ah..mmg krg ajar r...!
ssuke hati je..siap buat site lg..eiiiii!!!
tgk muke pon jahat....terok2!!!
org buat main je ngan agama ISLAM...xbaik betol....
eiiii......

hmm...mlm ni nk buat sesi fotografi..hahaha...
xtau la jd ke x..hrp sgt jd..
sape buat x jd siap! adk pulas tlinge..huuuu >_<

SELAMAT HARI RAYA...
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN....
maafkan semua salah dan silap adik slame ni....
adik cume insan biase yang lemah yang xdapat lari dari buat silap.....

sean covey said...

2010-09-05T01:30:00.003+08:00

7 Habits that all have big payoffs...

HABIT 1- Be proactive ( stop worrying about things you can't control )

HABIT 2- Begin with the end in mind ( write down your goals )

HABIT 3- Put first things first ( take fifteen minutes at the beginning of each week to plan your week )

HABIT 4- Think win~win ( get into the habit of sharing recognition and praise whenever you get it )

HABIT 5- Seek first to understand, then to be understood ( learn to use these words, " what do you think?" )

HABIT 6- Synergize ( learn to appreciate differences )

HABIT 7- Sharpen the saw ( take a few minutes each day to renew yourself spiritually )

and all these habits can help you...... :
~ get control of your life

~ improve your relationships with your friends

~ make smarter decisions

~ get along with your parents

~ overcome addiction

~ define your values and what matters most to you

~ get more done in less time

~ increase your self-confidence

~ be happy

~ find balance between school, work, friends, and everything else

taken by DAILY REFLECTIONS for HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS

sweating with small stuff...( but i think it is big)

2010-09-03T11:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPINESS WILL NEVER BE MINE

sometimes, everything that we own didn't come at one time...
we just have to wait, n try to search for that... but me, i don't think that i'll get that..
even until the end of my day.....
never ever~~~~~~~
our presence shows us how our future are.........

~ when my mind is FULL ~

2010-08-28T13:38:00.003+08:00

many things kne fikir minggu nie... kene ke or datang menjelma tibe2???
dn't know la..but 1 thing for sure...semak kepala ku dibuatnye...!!
aduh..first thing first!!!
tapi mslhnye byk sgt yg dtg kcau...
bln2 puase ni xkn la ade lg yg menghasut...adoila...lms2!!
hmm..trial exam x hbs lg...
resultnye nnti confirm2 menjerat leher..biau la x hbs lg pon...
tp da dpt agk da....
ape niiiii............
banyak sgt bnde yg x b'ada d tmpt yg spttnye....
msti nk kne amik ms yg lame utk ssn balik....so??? can i????

:(

" our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt.. " ~ william shakespeare ~

lalalalala~~~~~~

2010-08-06T11:10:00.002+08:00

heee...
tgh2 sidai kain td, ade la jugak hiburan...
surat khabar lama!!!syrat khabar lama!!!!!
adoila budak kecik tu....hepi memanjang..jerit sane,jerit sini..
gelak sane,gelak sini...
tringat plak yg ptg smlm....
' adk cepat!!!nk main api da ni..api jd doh...
cepat la adk!!!'
hahaha!!!smgt nye die nk men api...
adoyai!!!
ptg ni, bak kate ba', askar2 drpd 5e5 nk dtg mnyerang rumah ku...
tidak!!!!!
as a preparation utk melawan askar2 nie adlh dgn,......
MEMASAK!!!!~~~ hahahaha....
tp syngnye afi xdpt ikt same....klau afiq ade, ttunai la hjt die nk mkn mi kari yg mak buat...
huhu...
nk ajk sape lg yek???
si pqah n feeqa tu blh dtg ke tidak ah??
klau blh best gak tu...huhu....
adik!!!!
oppsss!!! da memanggil...
have to leave this post kat cni jek.....
......................................................
( missing in action..muahahahahaah!!!!)

WHEN I LOOK AT YOU...

2010-06-14T01:58:00.002+08:00

i am really in the middle of the night skang nie...
abuya ku da tdo...dr td2 ag..huhu...
at last!
adk b'jaye hbsn one chapter chemistry mlm nie....
SYUKUR ALHAMDULLLAH..!
klau la blh buat slalu mcm nie..kan bgs dik..
tp adik nie PEMALAS!!
ape la nk jadi dik..da bsar dah..ckup r buat prangai cmtu..
hmmmm.....

da tdo agknye..
it's ok la..good night jela..heee~~
nkal btol...
jgn mrh ek..that's what i feel...so i need to be honest..
lgpon, my life journey is tooooo long....
i'm afraid that i'll be a HEARTBREAKER one day....
tht's why i don't want to promise anything....
uuuuuu....xmau2!!
xmau dh tmbh dose bt skt ati org...
adoi....

please!!!!
wake me up!!!
wake me from this nightmare..
i want to live....
under the sunshine...
i want to feel the fresh air...
not that smoke!
please....
i want to look forward....
never want to look back, or watching those past things that had happened...
noooo!!!!
those are BAD DREAMS....

da xlame da nk balik skola...
i only have a day je lg kt umah...
aaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

adik : hurmmmm...sari je ag dok umah....T_T
abuya : xyah nk buat mke sdh r...sengkeh kn...
adik : dah..mls nk g....
abuya : bdk nie..time nk g skolah je msti cmnie..eiii...ape nk jd..

hahaha!!!
kn x psl2 da kne mrh...
tp seriously,
mls la!
x puas ag dok umah...
da la kne pegi awl drpd org len...
adoi..mmg r x puas ati kn...
huwaaa!!!
xpe r......nk bt cmne dh...
huhuuu....

in the middle of the night...
accompanied by this song...
by miley cyrus....

Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a soul.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's are long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.

And when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.

When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.

You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful!

When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you,

You, appear just like a dream to me.

brangan la byk2 dik! x hbs2..
huhuhu...sweet dreams~~~ ;)

i can't be tamed!!

2010-06-08T18:58:00.002+08:00

yup!!
btol2...adk can't be tamed!!!
I'm not a trick you play, I ride a different way
I'm not a mistake, I'm not a fake, It's set in my DNA
Don't change me!!!!!

tp g2 la...
sometimes our past do make us change, rght???
because, when we already face with something that gives a big bad impact,
for sure we don't want that thing to be happend again...
i don't know what other people think about it, but for me, yes,absolutely!!
especially on something that HURT!!!!

sharing problems sometimes can be good..
tp kdg,
tkt jgk rsenye...
tkt membebankan org yg mendengar...
btol x????
tp,semoga ALLAH sntiasa melindungi org tersebut...
amin...
bkn ape,sbb die da sudi dgr mslh kite kn...
kite kene syukur tau!
nk2 bile org tu cube utk tlg kite wlau mcm mane ssh skalipon...

DANAQAPIARAH~~~~
(EXCEPT RAH)
hehehe...
thank you so much...!!!
cuti nie da buat aku sdr yg kite da xlame blh bersama ag....
school just tggl few months je lg...
n after this, we will be on our own way....
sayang2 ku sekalian,
do know that i love you all so much!!!!

sory sir! i'm out of here.....

2010-06-07T23:06:00.002+08:00

usually,
people will shout out that words when they feel really out of limit..
yuppp!!!!!
same with me....
out of what limit????
the answer is.......
shhhhhh......hehehehe...
i don't want to blame others upon this...
i'm the one yg cari mslh,so that means i'm the one yg kene stle down this thing....
but how?????
i don't know larr..... T_T
but!!!!
don't worry..ALLAH will help me...
InsyaALLAH...slagi adk buat bnde yg betol,adk tau ade yg blh tlg...
and,
akal fikiran,kebijaksanaan yang d'kurniakan,
i supposed to use all that in this case...bile lg nk gune...kn3????
kesabaran,kekuatan hati,n everythng yg b'kaitan sgt penting..
i will!!!!
but,
no!!!!!!i still can't face it dgn hati yg tenang....!!!no!!!!
knp plak????
sbbnye,i don't want others to get involve with this...
but what happend now????
others involve!!!!
hey!
ape nie!!!!

adik : kau ni mmg xgne r athirah! kau da byk menyusahkan org kau tau x???!!!!
athirah : but i didn't mean it...T_T
adik : tengok ape da jd skang!!

seriously,i never thought that this kind of thing will happend...
i'm sory dear...
i never meant to burden you up with all of my problems...
maybe i'm not good enough in handling my own 'stuff'...huk3...
i don't know dear!!!!

tula ceritenye psl sorg budak pmpuan....skrg nie diri die dibelenggu perasaan 'GUILTY'....for her,die da menyusahkan seseorg yg da t'lampau byk tlg die..
and skarang,that person da t'jebak same ngan mslh die tnpe d'sedari...hmmm...
ksian btol...mcm mane agknye die nk settle...???
ntah la..sy pon xtau....
but i just hope,she will always have that strength to face with anytng in her life..
not only today,tomorrow,but always n forever.....

my LEARNING moments....

2010-05-01T01:02:00.004+08:00

for how long i've LEARNT to know....
and i know,
now, i already knew about it....
LEARNING takes so long....
but i never regret it....
thanks for the KNOWLEDGE....
KNOWLEDGE that make me strong....
strong FEELINGS that make me stand rght now...
on this momment.....
thanks for showing me about TRUST..
about CARES....
about SADNESS....
about LAUGH....
and also,
about CRITICS....
i APPRECIATE that so much!!!

pcd-hush!!!!

2010-03-19T00:57:00.002+08:00

i never needed you to be strong...
i never needed you for pointing out my wrong...
i never needed pain...
i never needed strain...
my love for you were strong enough you should have known...
i never needed you for judgement...
i never needed you to question what i spent...
i never ask for help...
i'll take care of myself...
i don't know why you think you gotta hold on me...
i never needed your corrections...
on everything from how i act to what i say...
i never needed words...
i never needed hurts...
i never needed you to be there everyday...
i'm sorry for the way i let it go...
on everything i wanted when you came along...
but i am never beaten,broken out defeated..
i know next to you there's nothing i belong...
and,
it's a little late for conversation...
it's a little late for explaination...
there isn't anything for you to say...
there isn't anything that you can do...
and my eyes hurt, hand shiffer...
so look at me and listen to me...
because,
i don't want to stay another minute
i don't want you to say a single word
there is no other way i get the final say
bacause
i don't want to do this any longer
i don't want you
there's nothing left to say
my life is broken...

HOME....?? not yet....

2010-03-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

well, da nak masuk hari ke-3 cuti mid term...

but for me,still the first day balik umah..

why???

well let see...

ptg KHAMIS - balik umah dayah sbbnye esk nye ade sminar kat KT...

JUMAAT - pegi sminar seharian dari pkul 8pg smpai la pkul 6.30ptg...

then,mak dayah offer suh stay kat sane 1 mlm ag...

memandangkan badan pon dah penat,so stuju je la...

SABTU - final day dok kat sane....at first,ade la niat nk kuar ngan bdk2 nie...

tp,ayah dayah ade kje..then i thought xjd...

but suddenly pia ckp nk dtg amik...

so,plan terlaksana.....

kuar la pegi tmpat yg standard dak2 c2 pegi mane..

hehe

but unluckily, the moment ktorg nk back to basic (balik umah) was not as sweet as we thought it might be.....

plan dgn mak....mak ckp,tggu kat umah dayah,mak dtg amik....

but,ktorg kuar...so adk suh mak amik kat bndr...mak da la nk cpt...

nk kejar kakk yg kat umah nk balik kuala krai mlm nie...

ape lg,mak pon nek angin r...

tu la dik,sape suh cr pasal...

in a sudden, tears raining heavily over my face...

x sgke2 blh nangis plak ms tu....

tp seriously, xske sgt bile kne mrh...

i felt guilty to my mum..

SORRY MUMMY!!!!!!!

huwaaa.....sdh btol!

tp tula,sape suh cr pasal dik???org suh tggu tu tggu jela!

dgil btol!!da bsau pon dgil!eiii.....

but,i will keep this as a lesson for me....

bile b'jnji,kene tepati....

huk3....sdh3....

nsb bek,bile smpai umah dayah,mak da cool..

so,blh la thn sket....

5.30ptg,smpai umah.....

pnt plak rs....

and mlm nie plak,dh ade kat kuala krai...

betape x ddk diamnye adik nie 2 3 ari nie....

balik umah skjp da pegi kelain...

esk grak KL lak...adoi...bile time nk stdy plak dik????

brat2....

' love is acceptance..

when you love someone, you take them into your heart...

and that is surely why it hurts so much when we lose someone we love...

because we lose a part of ourselves....'

~ andrew ~

ABUYA oh ABUYA..............!!!!!!!!

2010-01-30T15:00:00.004+08:00

pukul3 sudah...

in any hours from now, i'll leave my sweet home to continue my war!!!

just finished my lunch wth my 'big bro' and my dad...

(abuya...hehehe..)

"bile nak update blog???letak name k.ya plak..asyk name abg ye je..."

hahaha!!!!!!!

hello makcik!!!adoi..zaman bile pndai jeles2 plak nie???

rilex la babe!!

ambik,adk buat pos khas utk mu..

huhu..

siap tajuk name k.ya ag..

huhu....

xde mase la k.ya..cbok3!!!

cam k.ya jugak..asyk ade assignment jek...

( normal thing to be done to reach the top..rght sis??? )

huhu...

k.ya,bile boleh adk p shah alam nie...nak tggu pndh umah plak ke???

adoi...da la suke sgt pegi time adk xde...xaci btol!!

hmm..

raye cine nie balik mkn byk2 ae...

ni kn,bile time kt umah,nk diet..huhu...bla r...

huhu...

still remember this lovely moment????of course u did rght??klau x xkn smpai lipat gmbat nie msk la purse..huhu...n now,this pic ade in my diary tau!my turn plak utk smpn gmbar nie..huhu...

LOVE U AMIRAH ABAS!!!!!

the first three weeks of schooling!

2010-01-23T00:19:00.002+08:00

i can feel the different since i start my first day school for this 2010...

the time i went to school...

(which is much earlier than before....sbbnye ade roll col)

the way i study........

(a little bit more serious thn before...)

and much more thing that are different than the past years.....

harap2,smgt yg ade skarang nie akan b'terusan smpai habis...

sometimes pressure comes and disturb me...

but great emotion does know what is the best way to control those bad pressure rght???

so i need to keep that emotion in balance...

'always be the first rate version of yourself, instead of being the second rate version of somebody else...'

growing up.....

2010-01-08T13:55:00.004+08:00

adoi...

lemasnye...skt btol hati...

tapi xpe..Tuhan xkn bg kite ujian yg kite x mampu lalui kan???

so insyaAllah...everything will be find.....

tue nye la adik..da 17 pon...ish3.....homework byk nie...

first day sklh da ade hmework...mju btol!!

hahahaha.....

sklh2....

last da nie adik oi....

xsbr r plak rs nk hbs sklh..tp xpe,smntara ade mase ag nie,nikmati la sepuasnye...

'when you try to be nice with someone,but they always think about the negative thing about your kindness...

for sure your heart is like a broken glass....

how useless was your sincerity....

sometimes,rude can b nice....

just like in bsness..'

abg yie pnh ckp,klau dlm bisnes,kite xblh jd t'lalu baik..

kdg2,kite kene jd kejam jugak..

sbbnye,klau kite t'lalu baik,org akn amik kesempatam atas kebaikan kite...

mmg x sume org cmtu,tapi,kite kene pndai mengawal ragam manusia...

well,i guess friendship is also like that...

maybe,maybe not..

well i don't know...

sometimes,trying to understand someone's behaviour is complicated....

huhu..mcm2...

org nk mmbesar...

cian sofy..tkt die bsn jek dok kt umah nie..

tp,die da biase dtg,so..hope she's comfortable...

hmm....

i can't get enough with this!

2009-12-27T23:40:00.010+08:00

ngantok + lapau + bosan
ape la nk jadi budak nie..hehehe..
well,klas da hbs last thursday..and skang mggu utk siap2 nk p sklh...
hmwork still b'sisa....
pape je la...buat je...mls nk byk hal...
eiii!!! sdkt rs nk mrh mlm nie...
tp xpe..sbar,hal kecik jek...
nie mmber2 adik ms klas ari tu...
klas tmbahan tu actually kat SMK Nasirudin Shah...
maybe org2 besut knal la...
babah dlu ngajau kat situ..tp skang da pindah SMK Tembila...
about 20 years he'd been a part of the school organisation....
da la dlu mase sklh mngh pon kat situ..

discussion yg x henti2...ni sume time klas addmath...

mcm nie la keadaanye bile teacher is not in class..

from left : fatin, tikah and syafa.....

syafa is the best student for form4 as she successfully got 6a n 4b in final exam 2009
tgk gaye pon tau..rajin..hehe
tkah : first girl yg tgor adik....
fatin : i thought that die nie sombong..tp rpenye gler2..hehehe

4 guys yg xpnh b'pisah..dlm lab ke,klas, even math room...
from left : zul (smka nutul ittifaq),
najib (ank cg addmth kitorg n he's from smk tg mahmud)
faiz (my school buddy but xpnh b'ckp pon..hehe) n
amar ( a stdnt from mrsm but not sure mrsm mane..bsut nie la...)

farah kat blakang tu ngan muke yg always serious...
tp bile snyum manis sngat..huhuhu

p/s : cuti nie lnsong xde pegi mane2..sadis btol!
merajuk!!!!! :'(

saya anak cg.Abas!!

2009-12-15T14:28:00.004+08:00

hahahahaha............
menarik jugak jadi anak kwn ke kpd cg yg m'ngajau kite...
adik baru dapat rase pengalaman cmnie..
sblom nie,slalu t'tnya2....
' cmne ek rasenye jd ank cg skolah tmpt kite blajau??? '
huhu..tu mase zaman skolah rendah r..
skarang da dok asrama,len la plak jd nye...
tapi,klas tmbhn yg adik pegi nie bekas sekolah yang babah ngajau dulu...
so,kirenye,cg2 notice la kehadiran adk nie...
klas physics hari tu cg ajar la psl wave..
ade la ckp psl air...cg pon sbot p'kataan ' TOHOR '
tohor nie bhs org2 sini laa...mksdnye cetek...
cg pon tnye la kat bdk2 nie,

cikgu : awok pehe ko dok tohor tu gapo???
student : pehe..... (ramai2....)

tibe2,cg tu pandang adik....

cikgu : eh,awok anok cg.abas ke???
adik : (angguk2 sambil senyum...xkate ape coz da tebolah...huhu...
mane xnye...ngah syok2 ketawa,tb2 die pndg adk..huhu)
cikgu : namo gapo awok???
adik : athirah....(pendek je jwb..thn malu..hahaha!!!!)
cikgu : awok pehe ko dok tohor tu gapo???
adik : angguk2....(da mcm pak angguk da aku nie..hahah)
cikgu : pehe xpo..tkt xpehe jah....

tibe2,ade plak sorang naughty boy nie m'nympok...

adam : jolo ko pehe??yo tok pehe bena tu....
adik : (budak nie mmg nk kene ngan aku....)

nie my mum and my dad..nie la cg abas nye..hehehe

huhu...
first - knp die tnye adik phm ke x ah???maybe sbb die kenal mak kot..so maybe sbb tu takut xphm..hehehe
tapi mber klas msti t'tnye2,knp cg tnye cmtu..
second - x pasal2 sesi penerangan t'gendala sbb nye 'interview' ank cg.abas nie...hahah..satu klas pandang...malu2!!!

hmm...tu je la citenye...hehehe...
saya la anak cg abas!!!
padahal bbh da x mengajar kat situ...tapi,babah pon baru je pindah..kirenye bekas tu ade lagi la..hahaha
tu je la yg nak diciterkn nye..hehehe

how can u study with a pair of blind eyes????

2009-12-07T20:53:00.005+08:00

isn't that tittle is quite unique??
hehehe..
mcm biase adik continue my life with my everyday routine..
ari sabtu ari tu xde klas,so ikut mak pegi kat babah...
babah ade kursus kat kb,tapi die pegi ari jumaat lagi..
then,ari sabtu tu kitorg plak follow mak..kirenye 2 bijik kete la...
hehe..dapat la tdo kat len for a night..(new pacific,kota bharu)
jadi la tu..
nak pegi lame2, mak ngan babah,cbok memanjang...
hehe..
ha!!!!
t'jmpe la ngan my beloved principle...(hjh sa'adiah)
tp nmpk dr jauh jek..die pon kursus kat c2...
ari ahad kitorng grak balik..
n hari tu jugaklah gempar pasal kete jatuh dari tgkat ats kb mall..
masyaALLAH....
nasib baik adik xjadi pegi sane..klau x,xtau la..
coz at first,mmg plan nk pegi..
tp mah nak rush,so x jd...
but if i went there,i might use that escltor...
nauzubillah....
adik nek kete ngan babah,k.ya nek ngan mak..
huhu...bagi2...
and yg nak sukenye...mak ngan babah race!!!
bkn men...sorg lalu jln tu,sorg lalu jln nie...
last2,my team win!!!
wuhuu...bbh shortcut jln kecik mase da nk smpai umah...
heeeee...klakar tol!
i miss class bio ari nie..blom ape2 da ponteng nih!ish3...
hehehe
but today (monday) i'm back...
hari nie pon class bio...
last thursday i was very...ntah r..xreti nk kate..
very xleh nk concentrate r..
de few problems sket..n antare nye,mate xnmpk...
adoyai....
nie la akibatnye bile ade sifat DEGIL xnk pkai spek..
da tau rabun,buat la care rabun kn..hehe
tapi ari nie,da boleh atasi dah sume tu..
alhamdulillah...
everything depends on ourself right??
hari nie pon agk enjoy coz ckgu cite mcm2 dlm klas..
ade2 mase,tringat plak kat ckgu le'best....
hehehe...
xsbar plak nk tggu bukak sklh...
next year...
SPM2010
2000-2010
10 tahun adik berada dlm alam p'sklhn...
adoi..da penat r..
smpai cni je la..
hehe...

english language....

2009-12-02T20:37:00.003+08:00

today's story will continue what i'm doing yesterday...
hehehehe...
hari nie pon ade klas..(english class)
the first thing that all of us need to do was presenting our oral task...
smlm,tchr da bg mase utk prepare..n today,present la pe yg ade...
hehehe...
it was very fun....!!
in our presentation,we were asked to talk about ourself..
1- What are your likes and dislikes?
2- What are your hope?
3- What are things that make you happy?
what make me felt funny about this was when i heard many kinds of answer from my classmates...
kecoh giler klas!!
ade tu yang cakap,
" i'm fond of ice cream..but i hate banana ice cream...."
everybody was like, "ha????"
huhuuu.....
yg tchr plak jwb,
" i've never heard about banana ice cream but i do know banana split...."
huhuuu....everybody was going very crazy!!but it's very fun.....
ade lagi yang cakap,
" thing that make me happy is sleeping......"
then once again the class go crazy....hahahahah!!!!
banyak lagi jwpn yg gler2 diorg bg..sakit perut adik d'buatnye....
huhu....
then, sambong lagi class cam biase....ktorg break skljp stgh jam (10.00-10.30)
ha!!yg best jugak class nie sbbnye cg tu pasang lagu...
sambil2 buat keje yg die bg,die psg la lagu..at least,x r sleepy sgt kan..
da la weather yg,haiyooo...tejuk nye laaa!!!
huhuu..
yang last,we were asked to make a dialogue on a conversation of a hotel receptionist and a guest..
nie keje group..so,baru hari nie la adik btol2 byk cakap ngan
my new classmate..hehehe....
klau smlm,mmg malu gler...kui3....poyo tol..
mase presentation, again, i stood up and read the dialogue as a.........
RECEPTIONIST!!!
hahaaaa!!!
alhamdulillah,everything was good...
my partner jadi guest...nasib baik la guest nie x demand yang bukan2...huhu..
tu la p'jlnn klas english ari nie..
overall,BEST!!!!
tomorrow???
kite tunggu.......................................
:p

bace je la...

2009-12-01T15:01:00.002+08:00

for such a long time....
da banyak kali nak menulis,tapi slalu t'batal niat..
hehehe...
but this time,
dengan bertemankan lagu (miley-party in the USA),tangan adik menaip..
hehe...
quite sad for me c0z last day sklh,smthng kacau my mood...
kacau btol!!!
dan oleh kerana itu, mood 'sentap' tu t'bawak-bawak smpai cuti..
adoyai..!
papepun,xyah jadi bodoh la nak ikut ati...bak kate pepatah,
IKUT HATI, MATI...
hehehe...
mule2 cuti, sunyi gler..xde org kat umah except adk,mak n babah jek...
kakak2 yg len n abg nunu jauh di sane...
kadang2,rase cam ank tunggal lak..hahahaha!!!
da la tv rosak mase tu,argh!!!!
bayangkan dok umah sorg2 snyp sunyi....
sdh btoi!!!!
tapi,bile tv da balik,other siblings pon da balik,ok la...
xde la sunyi lagik...hehehe...
tapi skang just tggl adik ngan k.ye je...
tapi siang,msg2 xde,akak ya keje,adk klas...
mggu nie kan da masuk mggu ke2 cuti akhir tahun...so kire2 tggl lagi 5 mggu r..
dalam mase 5 mggu nie, i need to finish my homework (kerja cuti terancang), attend extra class,
preparation for next year...
org len ngah xm SPM,but me,preparation...
(same la sume budak2 form4 yg len...)
too many things need to be refreshed....
hari nie da stat extra class..adik pegi klas tambahan organized by a school in Besut..
sklh mane,hehe,i keep it as a secret...
pdhl,ade je dak form4 le'Best kat c2...siape?pon secret..
hehehe...
ala,sape yg baje blog nie,akn tau la nnti kat mane, n siape gerangan student tu..
don't worry....
huhu...
hari nie sujek english...(my favourite!!!)
esk pon same...tapi,awl x awl da ade keje...
esok ORAL!!!!!
adoyai!!!malu btol...at first nak pegi,segan sangat rase..
mane x nye,my final exam result is worst!!!
kat sane nnti,mmg confirm they will ask,which school i'm from,and how's my result...
NOOOOO!!!!
but,nk xnk,nsb r kan...bak kate babah,
"i need guidance,so that's why i'm here..."
huhu..smgt sket rase...
alah,nak burn cd la plak kakk nie..kcau btol.!
hehehe...
nanti smbong lg yek....